Break loose

Bismillah.

In our early days as a married couple, I queried him of his favorite facial feature of mine. I would expect the eyelashes, lips, or chin as I would ever receive the most comments on them. But as usual of him to go beyond my expectation, "Your nose," he pointed to the tip of my nose. 

I rolled my eyes in disbelief. I least prefer my nose all the time. "Why is that?" I questioned his odd preference. "I like it as it is. No reason." But then he did further elaborate after a few pushes. 

I used to hate my nose when I was a primary schooler. That one day around 2005 I came to the school with a nose sinus. It was severe enough that my internal nose was inflamed and swollen. I had this big pink-red at the centre of my face after multiple sneezes. Well I didn't know it was attractive enough for people to name-calling me such as "hidung merah" "hidung bungo" etc. Being a kid who blindly consumed their unfiltered words, I disgraced my own nose. 

But to have someone tell me right at my face that he loved my nose when I didn't, break the chain of my insecurities. It is very common to me, that those insecurities have chained my confidence deep down in the dark sea. Over time, I managed to fill my energy tank to rise to the surface again but never made it to the land with the chain. I am abashed with my ungrateful attitude towards His creation when it is clearly mentioned in (25:2): "and He has created everything and designed it in a perfect measure (and ordained its destiny in a precise manner)."

Another beautiful message I have learned is that, Allah has definitely outlined it all - the way to live your life today and hereafter - in Al Quran, that it is only up to us on whether we would like to understand, practice, and live with it or neglect it. 

May I (and we) are given limitless chance to learn from it, and live our life as according to it.