Bismillah.
Okay I'm going to write as much as I can 'cus I'm predicting I'm going to be quite busy the next week (ahaha (?)).
Last week, on 2nd Nov when I was at Bangi for this one sporting event, my mom texted me. She was asking if I’d like to take this one offer as a subs teacher for a month. I asked my mom when do I need to start working, she replied, "tomorrow!!" Geez, I thought my mom was kidding me but after I replied, "im going to arrive home at 5 am tomorrow?" she didn't hesitate for "yes, they said you can come at 9 am for tomorrow," hahah only for that, I knew she made no joke. Mom didn't force me, that she asked me nicely, "do you want to take this offer?" and when I asked for her opinion, she nicely put it, "well, i think it is really good for you to get the experience."
God, only Allah knew how exhausted I was, arriving at 5am that day by bus and had to work at 9am till 4pm, entertaining those kids 😩😩. They were super loud the whole day. I came back home that day looking awfully ugly and only Allah knew I slept like there was no tomorrow.
I had initially plan to go back home on 3rd Nov early in the morning but working as a subs teacher was never on my plan that week. It was unexpected offer from my old school. I decided to accept the offer for few reasons;
1. I was badly in need of a good distraction that I prayed for it in the bus earlier on my way to Bangi. When this offer came, I had faith in Allah’s plan, that this might be the answer to my prayer.
2. Since I had been rejecting other offers before, I thought it is really unfair for me to keep praying for rizq but I close the door immediately after He unlocks it for me. Moreover I had no other good deal to turn this one away.
Alhamdulillah I am forever grateful for this opportunity and experience. But Allah 😩😩😩 these kids are no kidding me.
“Cikgu Baru Cikgu Baru.” “Cikgu tengok ni dia buat saya.” “Cikgu saya tak bawak buku.” “Cikgu saya nak main boleh tak?” “Cikgu malas lah.” “Cikgu dah kahwin ke?”
Okay to tell the truth, I had always read this article on focusing towards a better education system. How teacher should treat their students, what works what you shouldn't do, this and that. I thought, okay I'm going to be that 'do-different teacher'. I thought, okay no shouting, no yelling, talk nicely they will respect and listen to you. I thought, okay I need to make this lesson as entertaining as possible that they are not going to study for marks but for knowledge.
I thought it was easy 😩😩😩😩
It is easier said than done.
I was super nice the first day. I was the ayu-est teacher at that school -only for that day. That the other teachers came at me,
"kita kena garang baru students hormat,"
"suara hajar perlahan la," "rasanya dah paling kuat harini" "hmm kena kuat lagi,"
"budak ni taklih bagi muka nanti tak hormat la kita."
Boys, (most of the times boys were the naughtiest in my class); I'm truly sorry I have tried to be a good teacher but you are the one who forced me to change.
No, I'm not going to be a fulltime teacher in the future 'cus I feel bad for them to have me as their teacher. But one thing for sure, I enjoy doing this, I feel happier, contented, lively as a person again. Even more than when I was doing architecture. See, I even wrote differently this time, it has more character and life in it. These kids own pure souls. They made you work sincerely although they were.....................................................................urgh kids.
Oh another point to add, since kids are terribly bad at lying and they tell you almost hundred percent of truth, I was the happiest person when I received compliment, "Cikgu cantiklah."
I know I know, please, let me just enjoy this joy after so long I had been in a bad mood, okay.
Okay I'm going to write as much as I can 'cus I'm predicting I'm going to be quite busy the next week (ahaha (?)).
Last week, on 2nd Nov when I was at Bangi for this one sporting event, my mom texted me. She was asking if I’d like to take this one offer as a subs teacher for a month. I asked my mom when do I need to start working, she replied, "tomorrow!!" Geez, I thought my mom was kidding me but after I replied, "im going to arrive home at 5 am tomorrow?" she didn't hesitate for "yes, they said you can come at 9 am for tomorrow," hahah only for that, I knew she made no joke. Mom didn't force me, that she asked me nicely, "do you want to take this offer?" and when I asked for her opinion, she nicely put it, "well, i think it is really good for you to get the experience."
God, only Allah knew how exhausted I was, arriving at 5am that day by bus and had to work at 9am till 4pm, entertaining those kids 😩😩. They were super loud the whole day. I came back home that day looking awfully ugly and only Allah knew I slept like there was no tomorrow.
I had initially plan to go back home on 3rd Nov early in the morning but working as a subs teacher was never on my plan that week. It was unexpected offer from my old school. I decided to accept the offer for few reasons;
1. I was badly in need of a good distraction that I prayed for it in the bus earlier on my way to Bangi. When this offer came, I had faith in Allah’s plan, that this might be the answer to my prayer.
2. Since I had been rejecting other offers before, I thought it is really unfair for me to keep praying for rizq but I close the door immediately after He unlocks it for me. Moreover I had no other good deal to turn this one away.
Alhamdulillah I am forever grateful for this opportunity and experience. But Allah 😩😩😩 these kids are no kidding me.
“Cikgu Baru Cikgu Baru.” “Cikgu tengok ni dia buat saya.” “Cikgu saya tak bawak buku.” “Cikgu saya nak main boleh tak?” “Cikgu malas lah.” “Cikgu dah kahwin ke?”
Okay to tell the truth, I had always read this article on focusing towards a better education system. How teacher should treat their students, what works what you shouldn't do, this and that. I thought, okay I'm going to be that 'do-different teacher'. I thought, okay no shouting, no yelling, talk nicely they will respect and listen to you. I thought, okay I need to make this lesson as entertaining as possible that they are not going to study for marks but for knowledge.
I thought it was easy 😩😩😩😩
It is easier said than done.
I was super nice the first day. I was the ayu-est teacher at that school -only for that day. That the other teachers came at me,
"kita kena garang baru students hormat,"
"suara hajar perlahan la," "rasanya dah paling kuat harini" "hmm kena kuat lagi,"
"budak ni taklih bagi muka nanti tak hormat la kita."
Boys, (most of the times boys were the naughtiest in my class); I'm truly sorry I have tried to be a good teacher but you are the one who forced me to change.
No, I'm not going to be a fulltime teacher in the future 'cus I feel bad for them to have me as their teacher. But one thing for sure, I enjoy doing this, I feel happier, contented, lively as a person again. Even more than when I was doing architecture. See, I even wrote differently this time, it has more character and life in it. These kids own pure souls. They made you work sincerely although they were.....................................................................urgh kids.
Oh another point to add, since kids are terribly bad at lying and they tell you almost hundred percent of truth, I was the happiest person when I received compliment, "Cikgu cantiklah."
I know I know, please, let me just enjoy this joy after so long I had been in a bad mood, okay.
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| i don't want to lie but they love me. |
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