September 30, 2019

Asking for understanding on my overthinking attitude

Bismillah.

I am an over-do overthinker girl. Whenever I had this two tiny little pests fought against each other in my brain, I knew I had to do any physical activities; not to harmonize the fighting but to allow the pests to channel their expressive arguments into action. Sometimes I would scrub the toilet, do the dishes or cook a complicated menu. Not that I am that kind of girl who loves to do household chores because God knows the number of sighs before I actually do one, but I couldn't lay down, sleep or watch movies when it happened that  I would vent my upset to the others immediately afterwards (sorry to all the victims ;((( ).

People in my circle told me that I think a lot of things that aren't even happened yet.
"Benda tak jadi lagi tak perlu nak fikir lebih-lebih,"
"Let God do His work, you do your best He will do the rest,"
"What do you benefit from this overthinking act? That you can stop those bad experiences beforehand?"

I do agree with most of them, that it is really unnecessary to do so. Overthinking comes from over-doing-the thinking, the act of thinking too much and all that related to too-much often end in a bad term.

But here I present my own arguments to succumb to my need to overthink.

I am that individual who is learning from her past. I took the aftermath of each bad experiences as lesson that I keen not to repeat at any cost in the future. Yes, bad experiences are necessary to teach you the lesson but the repeated one means that you haven't learnt from the previous one properly.

Second, I conduct my very own initial observation before making any assumption to summarize the whole event for the final conclusion. Easy peasy, what would you expect from yourself who give no effort to make changes now to be in the future, that luck will climb the hill for you? "Ahh, you don't do this now in the future you will be this and that and this and that," is the kind of simple starter for overthinking.

Third, overthinking is the result of over expecting life. Estimating the worst thing that life can ever do to you allows you to prepare yourself better. Expecting that all man is the same so that when you find one who offers you differently is a twisted plot. Life can be good sometimes, is what you can finally say to yourself.

Extra - forth, I need attention therefore I require a case to argue upon although at the end i am the only one with the right answer like we all knew it from the beginning.

Thus, is it overthinking is still bad tho it is not solely came out from emotional and imagination reasoning but based upon real time observation, experiences and research *(with a very dot of emotional expression)?

At least in my case, they cleaned my house.




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